Why am I still like this ?


why am I so lazy ?

I was asked to go out for lunch with a coworker today, but I feel too lazy, self centred, fearful of driving where I have never been.

I don’t have close friends and this maybe my reason, I have pain in my chest thinking about it ( like and elephant sitting on my chest). I do have depression and extreme anxiety, ( Due to two  customers attacking me verbally and physically on the same day ). If I take anything for anxiety, it makes me tired and I take a 1/2 of the weakest tablet I have be prescribed.

I have been through counciling and still see a psychiatrist, and am taking medication but still I find it so hard to attach to anyone, and go to new places, especially shopping centres ( this is where I mainly work, as a Demonstrator)